righting.the.wrongs

 

there was a time when i thought pictures without people in them are the best. back then i still used a digital camera. but already for a while now (since i'm shooting analogue again? -maybe because it's neater than anything digital) i'm quite convinced of the opposite. i take a lot of photos showing persons, or more precisely either crowds or dear friends, and sometimes i really like the result (deep colours, facial expressions, maybe even displaying an inside joke). but i rarely share any of these pictures here in the blog because i just don't feel comfortable about it (at least not with the ones showing friends, i don't want to get someone's feelings or privacy hurt). sometimes it works to "censor" a face with e.g. a triangle but these incidents are unfrequent and they always arise the question: do i really want to do this? put my just scanned and completly unmachined shots to let's say "photoscape" and lay something enveloping over them? therefore there are days when i think about shutting off this whole thing here because it doesn't seem to be "real" or "reality in it's complete amount" -it appears then to me that i'm telling myself a lie as well as to my dear and lovely readers (there is this kind of a daydream in which everybody in my closer environment has a blog, written for his/her friends who also have blogs; but the truth is that nobody in my real life knows about me, hitting stupid, bumbling little texts in the keyboard and posting a few of the pictures i take- nevertheless i affect doing so and it will go on, that's for sure). somehow i just wanted to tell you about this concern and maybe one day there will be a change and i will be able to post photos picturing sleeping, laughing, thinking, contesting and eating friends. until then i'm going to continue the way it is right now.

i just wanted to write: the rain is over now. but it isn't. 

hopefully this whole thing wasn't too irritating..